Thursday, July 29, 2004

They are here!!!

Finally, after months of work, days of sweat, tears, and hours of rending my vestments trying to get them back from the duplicators in time for tonight's show, I have the promotional copies of our first album (to be "officially" released in the fall) "Chapter and Verse" in my hand! 10 tracks chunk full of Subliminal Self's style of dark synthpop goodness.

Unfortunately, as these are promotional copies, there are no liner notes. To make up for it, I wanted to send out some notes of thanks to all those who helped this cd come into fruition.

The BIG thanks goes out to Mike Crooker (aka Tofu). Without his production, advice & support, this would have been a much lesser disc.

Other thanks:
Special thanks go out to Dawn Mitchell, Chris Foldi & Dougless R. Esper for lending their vocal talents and time, in exchange for nothing more than some good times. You have my immense appreciation.

I'd also like to thank the amazing bands we've have the privledge of performing with in the past year: State of Being, Tofu, In a Cat's Eye, Scare Tactic, Doom Patrol, no_tech, ThouShaltNot, Hungry Lucy, Cyanotic and Peace Patrol, as well as all the DJ's who spun our first EP, including: DJ Evil C & The Mystery Dancer (Darkfield Imagery), The One Bob (The Shape of Things to Come), IPM Radio, Dj Cypher (Dark Nation Radio) and Audiotech Live.

And, of course, my supportive family: Genevieve, Alesha, Mom, Dad, Susan, David, Caleb, Audrey, Byron and Oliver

Lastly, but not leastly (though occasionally beastly - okay, I'm done) a few particularly awesome people: Lou, Lauren, Adam and Anne. ALL the members of our mailing list and all the others who I forgot 'cause of my Swiss cheese brain, you guys and galls rock!

Anyways, now that I have that out of the way. Who wants a copy?
Of course, the easiest (and my personal favorite) way of getting one would be to head up to the show at Club 10-34 tonight. (Check the website, for more info)
Barring that, e-mail me at with your name and address and I'll have one out to you.
thanks much!


Wednesday, July 28, 2004

Sorry if it's been a kind of bad week for blogging. The dingy and gray weather has gotten me into an irritable funk, leaving me neither fit for man nor beast.

So, I've decided to put my headphones on, crank some Sunday and Smiths and think about sunnier days.


Tuesday, July 27, 2004

Hel-lo nurse,

Reminder: This Thursday (July 29th) - we're playing a show over at Club 10-34 in Cleveland. This is an all ages show, so bring your little brother/sister/cousin. We are not responsible for lost, misplaced or sullen children all in black, though.

It's also an early show (doors at 7:00pm, show at 7:30pm), so there's plenty of time for drinking and merriment afterwards (sadly, the club itself is "dry").

Along with our snazzy selves, State of Being and Tofu will also be performing.

We will also have a limited number promo copies of our new album, "Chapter and Verse", available for FREE during the show. This will be the first time the cd will be available anywhere! Seriously. I will be getting it in from the duplicators that day! This is as "first pick" as first picks come. Come by and pick it up, as well as buy a copy of State of Being's new album "Haywire" - already r/c'ing critical acclaim!

Admission is only $5.00

Club 10-34 is located at 12123 Lorain Ave. in Cleveland. (It's on the corner of W. 121'st and Lorain, near Mi Pueblo Grocery)
For more information about the club and directions, please visit:
Want to find out more information about any of the above bands? Check out the following sites: (State of Being) (Subliminal Self) (Tofu)

Interested in getting a copy of the promo cd, but can't get out to one of the shows? E-mail me ( your address and, as soon as they come in, I'll have a copy out to you.

So, thanks to everyone for their support! Until later.



Monday, July 26, 2004

So, last night I watched a show on, among other things, Critical Mass. If you don't want to visit the website, the long and short of Critical Mass is that a bunch of bicyclists get together and ride down a main street, blocking all lanes of traffic. It's meant to be a protest against not only our over-reliance on cars, but getting back at all those motorists who seem to think bikes do not have a place on a road. I believe one of the people interviewed for this story said it best:
"Critical Mass is a good idea like Communism is a good idea. It's great..until you get humans involved."
As an increasingly avid cyclist, I'd like to get behind Critical Mass and I, certainly, see where it's coming from. My route to work involves Rockside Road, perhaps one of the most bike and pedestrian unfriendly stretches of pavement this side of I-90. Buuuut...I watched this show and you know what I saw:
* Shitheads riding through Grocery Stores and then claiming that "the man" is harassing them for "no good reason" when they get arrested at the end.
* People blocking all lanes of traffic on a busy road during rush hour.
* More self-righteous little pricks than I ever care to see.
The whole thing just = a bunch of pissed of motorists. Look, people aren't going to give up their cars and, you know, they shouldn't have to. Yes, people need to walk/cycle more and drive less and yes yes YES we need to make out cities more friendly for this! But, blocking a bunch of people coming home from work and pissing them off isn't going to do that. If you want to affect change and get people to respect cyclists, give them something to respect. Obey traffic laws, ride safely and consistently, be aware of the cars around you and make sure they are aware of you. Do not ride through the fucking grocery store. 'Cause it's stupid and it's dangerous. I mean, what are you saying when you're asking for the same rights as motor vehicles, but then ALSO want to be able to be a pedestrian as well. It makes no sense. Unless you want people to be able to drive their Honda into the supermarket, don't suppose that you should get ADDED privileges.
These are people who do NOTHING for the positive image of cyclists. Instead, they make all cyclists seem like self-righteous assholes. Look, I don't want to get hit. I don't want people to skim me, I want to be able to safely ride where I need to go. But this is something that involves: intelligent and thoughtful city planning, programs to enhance bicycle friendly opportunities and a community which will co-exist with cars, not ones which will try to dominant over them like they do over us.


Friday, July 23, 2004

So, after staying up to midnight last night (way past my bedtime), I can now say I have finished the first Subliminal Self album and loaded it to the duplication company's servers.

Of course, listening to it now, I can still hear mix changes I'd like to make. I'll not point the mistakes out, as I don't want anyone to be listening for them, but needless to say, they stare at me with the obviousness of a missing tooth on a big grin. I need to keep reminding myself that this is a promo release. These are all things that can get fixed when I release the official album. bothers me to no end.

Plus, thanks to my own late-ness, I had to pay an exorbitant amount in shipping costs in order to get the discs in time for the show on the 29th. I encourage all attending to beg for copies from me, to make me feel better about it ;)


Thursday, July 22, 2004


So, across the street today they had a "free lunch", hosted by Magic 106.5
During which, I consumed more complete crap (2 hot dogs w/ stadium mustard, 1 cookie, 2 fig newtons, 1 can of generic cola and an Arby's BLT wrap) than I *ever* do in a week, let alone an hour. As such, my body has completely rebelled and I am now feeling kind of ill.
It's like a veggie getting a side of just doesn't know what to do with all the sugar and salt.

On the upside, it *was* free ;)

I am such a cheep sonofabitch


Apologies to everyone if I've been less than talkative this week. We've been getting ready for a visit not only from my mother-in-law, but my sister as well. I've also been desperately getting things together for the Subliminal Self promo album, which I am praying I get back by the show next week. Unfortunately, somewhere in all of that, I have not promoted the show on the 29th as much as I would have liked. I'm going to have to take some time this weekend and do some quick fliering at the local coffeehouses (it's an all-ages show, so I'm hoping for the young crowd that can't normally come to our shows). Plus, my keyboard broke last week and that's in the shop. Luckily, a friend of mine has been gracious enough to lend me one of his. It's times like this that I am glad that I don't make tweak-sound-centric music.


Tuesday, July 20, 2004

Spreading the blog word even more....
An old friend of mine, Davecat, who I recently got in touch with again, has started his own blog:
And, yes, he's just as weird in real life.

As a side note, I biked into work this morning. No, it's not exciting. And I kind of like that. It means it's gotten to be normal. So hopefully I'll do it more.


Monday, July 19, 2004

Oh, and what IS it with me and seeing famous people lately:
I saw Dennis Kucinich (the KOOCH!) at 'Taste of Tremont'
He looked just as cute and cuddly in real life.


Oh, lots of stuff for today's blog. Some of it even -gasp- FOOD RELATED! I know I've diverged off that topic for a bit now, but foodies can rest assured, I will return to it in this post.
The first up is not though. On Friday evening, while flipping through the channels, we came across an ad for that night's local news (on Fox, I believe). The catch-line:
"Should bicycles be allowed on Cleveland Streets?" - with, of course, the implication being that they should not.
I really wish I was a news reporter and could take a crack at this story. I'd give the shortest newscast in the history of television.
"The answer is 'yes'. Bicycles are allowed on Cleveland streets. 'Yes'. Back to you, Bob."
I mean, seriously. Gas is $2.00 a gallon, Cleveland is not exactly a skinny town, and we're a pretty compact little city (especially compared to somewhere like Detroit). So, I'm sorry, getting out of your SUV/Hummer and onto a bike isn't exactly going to kill you. It's like those disc jockey's awhile back who advocated running over cyclists. Here's the thing: It's not funny. Hundreds of cyclists are killed every year and thousands injured, all from collisions with automobiles. Getting people more pissed at cyclists isn't helping anyone. We need newscasts which are teaching tolerance, on all fronts, not just how the other guy is wrong.
On a lighter note, 'Taste of Tremont' was this weekend. 'Taste..' is a one day event where all of the out of towners see how many of our parking spaces they can take up. I mean, it's where all the restaurants and shops spotlight their wares during a one day street festival. It's actually really very fun. Unfortunately, we had decided to go there for dinner this year and, with a larger than average crowd around, some of our favorite restaurants had already run out of food by the time we got there. So, places like La Feliz Tortilla and Fahrenheit had already closed up shop. That didn't stop us from getting some great food though. I grabbed some southern-style BBQ pork with cornbread, perogi's (from where else but Sokolowski's University Inn ;), a salmon burger, finishing it off with a amazing chunk of strudel to round out my dinner. The only bad one of the bunch was the fish, which ended up being really dry. I guess, knowing that it'd be out all day, they overcooked it. Ah well. One thing I did notice is that, for such a spotlight event, most of the restaurants played it very safe. Places like Lola's Bistro, which normally specialize in gourmet fare, served Mac & Cheese and many other restaurants seemed to follow suite. It's too bad. I would have thought that, with such a huge audience of potential new customers out there, you'd want to wow them with something really fancy-schamncy. But, I guess, when you have to serve hundreds of different palates with one dish, all in one day, you want to get something that everyone can enjoy.
Final point.. So, last week, while we were biking, we noticed a farmer's market down in Cuyahoga Falls, selling corn. I know, not exactly revolutionary for Ohio this time of year. But, this was farm fresh stuff (i.e. you picked the corn off of the tractor bed). So, we decided that, this weekend, we'd pick some up. Now, we did expect it to be cheaper than it was. All-in-all, we spent $9.00 on 2 dozen ears of corn, which is $1.00 more than we could have gotten it from the market. But, it's just about at local and fresh as one can get, so I'm not arguing. Mixing that with the corn we'd already had at home, we now have 32 (!) ears of corn. WTF are we going to do with all that corn, you ask??
Well...corn soup, corn cakes, corn bread, corn pizza, corn risotto, cornhole...corn corn corn...:) Seriously, alot of it we're going to make into soups/stocks/etc and freeze, so we can have summer corn in the middle of winter. It's still kind of intimidating though.


Friday, July 16, 2004

(to the tune of 'Red Skies') Weird dreams last night....

The main one consisted of me becoming convinced the house I lived in was haunted. For some reason, I kept conferring with this guy who owned a record store, which was right next door, but I also suspected that he might have something to do with it.

Finally, I convinced him to come into the house. We went upstairs and looked into a room at the top of the stairs. My mom is sitting in the middle of the room. I showed the record store guy a picture I had taken just moments before. In it, you can see the very clear outline of the profile of a person laughing, but you could also see right through the shape, so we knew it wasn't really there. As I brought the picture down, we looked at the chair the figure had been sitting on, in the photo, and saw that the apparitions was appearing in it once again. At that point, I heard a noise on the ceiling. Looking up, I didn't see anything, but when I looked down again, I caught a glimpse of something in the reflection of the cd I was I holding. I brought the cd up at an angle, to get a better view. There, in the reflection, I could see tons of ghastly things crawling all over the ceiling of the room my mom was in. The record store guy noticed it too and we both ran, as fast as we could, out of the house. Once we go out, we stopped and turned around to look at the house. I don't know what we expected to happen, but it was going to be something big. Luckily, I woke up before whatever was supposed to happen, did.

By the way, I completely blame this person/post for that dream.


Thursday, July 15, 2004

Looking at my Apple Newton and back at the numerous "vintage" synthesizers I've had in the past, I must conclude that I have a borderline obsession with obsolete technology. This obsession definitely spills into the realms of video games. Though, in this, I feel much more justified. Say what you will about better sound, 3D graphics, intense cinematic cut scenes, at the end of the day, I will *still* throw myself around playing Bosconian (trying to make the quick turn), scream at the screen during Pac-Man and wile away dazed hours listening to the -annoying- Dig Dug music until Genevieve can't take it any more. But, put me in front of anything made after the 90's (except 'Resident Evil' or the first 'Serious Sam', both of which I love) and I'll play it, sure, but all of those elements designed to get me "into the game!", do less for me than those huge pixels of years ago.

I think, in part, it's living out memories from years ago. Heading over to my friend Jay's house to play Zelda and Ninja Gaiden on the NES. (Side note: I look at the PS2's and such today and no matter HOW cool it is/was to have one of those now, it stands no-where-close to how cool it was to have an NES in the 80's. I mean, in 2 years, PS2's will be on sale in the bargain bin somewhere. While the newest issue of 'Nintendo Power' was something to be simply *drooled* over during recess). Popping quarters in the Centipede or Galaga (and later on Altered Beast and Xenophobe) machines in the local bowling alley. Strolling down the isles of Toys r' Us ogling the newest Super Mario or Contra game.

But, really, a lot of it is just that they're still freggin' FUN. The people that programmed those games could give a rat's ass about the story behind it. Half the time the back-story on the box seemed like a very thin thread slapped on at the end and meant to give you some sort of purpose in playing the game (I guess they didn't think we'd be happy with "blow shit up", though most of us were). They cared about making a fun game. They wanted you to keep popping quarter after quarter into the machine. People also forget that old game carts -were-not-cheap-. Sure, you can get any NES cart for the price of a pack of gum nowadays, but I remember these things going for $50.00 a pop, easy. If you were going to hand over that hard-earned allowance money to play a character who could either be a street fighter or a leatherman, it better be something that's going to suck you in for hours-on-end.

So, what were your favorite games? What kept you away from the sun and trapped in a smoke filled game room?

I would suggest anyone who went "hell yeah" at any point in this blog to immediately grab a twenty and buy the first Namco TV Games joystick (which features many of the exciting games I talked about above). I own one and love it to death.


Wednesday, July 14, 2004

A couple of links I recently got:

First...a site very much up my alley:

Now, I remember when SUV's hit peak popularity. It seemed that everyone and their mom (especially those under 5'3") was driving around in one of these beasts with appropriate names like Suburban (which part of me likes to believe is a subtle dig on your average SUV driver on the part of a designer somewhere) and Expidition. And, yes, I hated them. This was probably made worse by the fact that I got into an accident (my fault) with one and, though on a normal car, it would have been a fender-bender, the fact that the SUV's bumper was actually in line with my HOOD and not my bumper (what is the point of the bumper, in that case, anyways?), it ended up doing extensive damage.
This dislike was escalted even further recently, when we rented one to haul back furniture from Ikea, only to discover that, even in a honkin' slab, as they are, the inside space was sooo poorly designed that it seemed to only have a miniscule more space than my compact Honda. Anyways, so I saw SUV's..and lo', I did hate.

Then..when I thought people couldn't drive anything more asshole-y. I saw my first Hummer driving down the road.
And that spite I felt before...oh it grew like the Grinch's heart at the end of the story. I don't get it. Who needs a car that fucking big and, even worse, why is the #1 color seem to be yellow and black? I mean, are these people just smart enough to want to acknowledge they're driving around a BUS? who knows.
Okay, I will say, it's okay in my book to have a Hummer IF: 1) you live in the mountains..and I mean like the top of Everest. 2) you need something to drive your religious cult around in. 3) you are IN THE MILITARY AND CURRENTLY SERVING.

Anyways, link #2 is another reason why Prince is damn fucking cool:


So, last night we saw our first episodes of "We love the 90's"

For those who don't know, this is the third of a related series on VH1. It all started with "We love the 80's." Basically, all these shows consist of bite-size snippets about pop culture (one episode for each year) with commentary provided by a variety of comedians and entertainers (most notably Mo Rocca 'The Daily Show', Hal Sparks, and some guy from 'The State', whose name slips me). After the success of the 80's show, they did a 70's show, which we really didn't watch because it's not like we'd remember any of that stuff. Then..back to the 80's again. Yea, this was kinda lame that they did the whole 80's series TWICE. The only plus was that 1984 got a spotlight on the movie Gremlins, which was suprisingly overlooked in the first go through. I assume the immense feelings of shame and guilt over missing such a obvious piece of pop culture got to them. In fact, I wouldn't be suprised to learn that they did the whole series again JUST to have the chance to touch on the Gremlins legacy.

Aaaanyways, so now they've done the 90's and, honestly, these are the ones more oriented towards our age group, having been teenagers during that decade. At the same time, it did seem kind of lame, as it *wasn't that long ago*. Not near enough time has passed that any of this stuff can even seem retro. Though it was worth it for the chance to see Ross Perot again and clips of his running mate (whose name slips me) falling asleep during a debate. We only caught 1991 and 1992 last night. I can only imagine how lame it will get when they get to 1999, being only *5 years ago*.


Monday, July 12, 2004

Other news this weekend. In short:

Went to B-Ware's Going out of Business sale (and a real one, at that, not like those fake ones where the company is just moving or such) and, battling through the thick crowd of people and stifling air (film geeks do not seem to be known for their personal hygiene), picked up a copy of 'The Beast from 20,000 Fathoms' <- I love Ray Harryhausen, and a cheesy werewolf flick called 'Werewolf of Washington'. Definite plans to head back and pick up more.

Biked 22 miles with Genevieve. This marked the longest, almost continual, amount we've biked, so far. Grabbed a yummy lunch at Jaiper Junction afterwards and gained back all the weight we lost during the ride ;)

Talked with an old friend I've known since I was a wee lad of 16 or 17. We hadn't talked in a good number of years, so it was great to talk with him again. Consensus of conversation: life is drama <- and usually more like USA Network than TNT.


Friday, July 09, 2004

So, I biked into work today. This time there was a reason..namely that we spent $24.00 on gas in the gas yesterday and didn't even fill it up (and, remember, we just drive a little Honda). Gotta love gas prices.

I can't complain, the weather this morning was awesome, I was enduring like a machine, but now I'm feeling...trapped.
I want to go out there, I want to be free of these four cube walls and keep going.

Ah, well, there's always the ride back.


(in cheesy Classes-by-Mail voice) Do you like Horror and B-Movies? Sure, we all do! (end voice)

That's why it's so sad to hear that B-Ware Video, the only independent video store in Lakewood, is shutting it's doors. We received the notice yesterday. B-Ware has been completely independently owned and operated for 5+ years now (by a young married freak couple), offering *the* best selection of indie, B-movies, horror movies, and art house flicks in Cleveland. Shit you would never ever find at Blockbuster or Hollywood. I regret that, once we moved into Cleveland, we didn't get to visit as much as we'd of liked, but when we lived in Lakewood, we were regular customers.

This not only saddens me because they were such a cool place visit, but because I see it as the further smothering of locally run stores in favor of the big boxes (in this case, Hollywood Video). Think about it..if a Hollywood were to close, who cares? I mean, who is going to be out of a job? A handful of teenagers who will move onto to work at a Pizza joint or something. The people who own Hollywood don't care, they'll just build another one down the street. But, I can go into B-Ware and know that the couple behind the counter are losing a huge investment in time and money. There's no employees to fire, those people you see behind the counter every-single-time you go in. That's not hired help. Those are the owners. That's the sort of connection you'll never get at a National chain.

But, there is some somewhat-happy news. Since they are closing, they are selling their complete inventory. Starting this Saturday at 1pm, all DVD's and VHS's will be on sale for only $10.00. (I believe they are selling everything else as well: books, decorations, shelves, etc.)
I'm heading up there this weekend.

B-Ware is located at 13367 Madison Avenue in the Madison Village District.


Wednesday, July 07, 2004

Does this make me old, or just an audio freak?

I've been listening to this program called Atmosphere Lite all day today.
It's this software where basically you can adjust it to replicate the audio environment of say: a Storm, Woodlands, Autumn, a Dessert, Summer, etc.

The intent is to offering a calming sonic landscape for work or such and, I have to say, it works pretty well. The program is arranged so that nothing feels looped and is quite random. (It works on two stages: a background stage, where you set things like wind and rain and such..constants and a random sound stage, where it adds things like occasional wildlife sounds. There is a setting for Driving on a rainy day which is, for some reason, particularly relaxing for me.)

It completely tickles the audio geek in me, which loves ambient noise. I'm one of those people who generally like to hear sound constantly and it fills that space really well, without inducing the ear fatigue of listening to music 24x7.

But then, it *is* calming nature sounds, which feels soooo damn lame.


Tuesday, July 06, 2004

Blogger is driving me nuts. First it did not want to publish the below blog, now it does not seem to want to delete the duplicate copy.
So, apologies if you see two of the same post.


Had a busy and long weekend this past's some short snippets:

On my bike back on Thursday (which, overall, went well)..I got to meet one of the types of car vs. bike drivers that Miss Spisak mentioned previously, the Honkers. I can only guess that *they* consider this an act of consideration. Mind you, one which, in essence means, "Get out of my fucking way", but consideration nonetheless.

I also got a chance to discover that the hardest vehicles to ride on the road with are actually NOT SUV's. It's those big Ford or Dodge trucks. You know, like the F350's or such. These guys are actually WIDER than an SUV, leaving almost 0 room in their lane to being with. Which, for a bike, means that they are either constantly almost running into you or you are almost constantly passing them by riding slammed against the curb.

Did a lot of other biking this weekend, as well. But the rest of it was on the Towpath Trail. 7 miles on Saturday and then 14 on Monday. We would have gone farther on Sunday, but we were meeting some friends for lunch and had to get back.

In food news, I made my first dish from our new Rick Bayless "Mexican Kitchen" book, which turned out really well. It was a street food-style enchilada dish with crunchy condiments. Excellent and surprisingly easy to make. I've found I really enjoy Mr. Bayless's easy to follow method of instruction. It's a def. example of well thought out cookbook writing. Plus, it reminded me very much of a Luchita's dish, which ...considering they are among my top Mexican places in the area, can only bode well ;)

In music news, we headed up to Pittsburgh this past Friday to catch one of my favorite bands from my old goth days, This Ascension, perform. They were celebrating their 10 year anniversary with a mini tour and it marked the first time they were in the area since I saw them back in 1997/8 or so. Though their style on cd is very ethereal and spacey, live they turn up the energy with 2 drummers and some amazingly loud walls of guitar/keyboard/voice. When I saw them back in the 90's, I marked it as one of my top shows of the year. I am happy to say that, despite the years, they did not disappoint. Plus, they closed the show with the killer "Poor Mortal Lost", an bouncy tune from their first album and one of my favorites (next to "Swandive", which they also performed).

Opening for them was Alexx from ThouShaltNot, performing a solo acoustic set. I've been a fan of TSN for a bit now (even got to open for them last year, which was one of my highlights of the year), so I was dying to see what he'd be pulling out for this show. The set was comprised mainly of completely new, original, songs, with a TSN song put in there for everyone. My only disappointment was that the song "Chatterbox", a standout of the set, for me, was not available on the EP he had for sale. Overall, a really good performance.

I also worked a bit on my own music. I'm not going to post anything here, so there can be at least a *couple* new songs on the upcoming promo album for everyone ;)
Look for that to *finally* come out at the end of this month. We have a couple shows coming up though: Thursday, July 29th, 2004 @ Club 10-34 (located on the corner of W. 121st and Lorain Ave., next to Mi Pueblo). This is an all-ages show and, as such, will be an early one. Show starts at 7pm..ends at 11pm. Admission is $5:00. We'll also be heading up to Detroit to play a show at Paycheck's with Humachine and The Morning Star. Should be a really fun time. I have a friend who I have not seen in forever and a day who lives in Detroit. So, hopefully we will get a chance to say hello.

That's about it for now..


Thursday, July 01, 2004

A minor pet peeve...

I don't believe this involves anyone who reads this list.
So, every Thursday at work, my department orders Chinese food. I started the idea and, as such, I'm the one to place the order and to pick it up for everyone. It's kind of become a ritual at this point. Anyways, so today, like some weeks before, I decided not to order Chinese (since I biked into work and all, I wasn't about to bike up to the Restaurant and then bike back with boxes of food). Now, I certainly wasn't going to stop anyone else from ordering though and I offered the variety of different menus I had to anyone who wanted to place the order and pick it up. On a normal week, I get about..10 or so people who order. But, out of those 10 people, if left to their own devices, not-a-single-one will actually do it themselves. This is not the first time I've offered to have someone else do it and every single time, if I don't order it, nobody does. Maybe it's a small thing. But when you get people who come over to find out if anyone volunteered (but then, of course, never offering to do it themselves), it's annoying. It reminds me that I have this group of people I work with who just can't drive 5 minutes down the road to pick up their food. Either that or they lack the basic compassion to do something which will benefits others than themselves. I don't know. Either way, it's damn lazy. It makes me not want to order for these people who don't want it unless it's served right up to them, a'la McDonalds.


So, I biked into work again today (it's 12 miles, for those counting). This marked the first time I did not bike out of semi-necessity. My car is running fine, there's gas in the tank, I just opted to trek it in this morning.

It also marked another first. The first time I made it up the infamous Valley hill. This hill had been my nemesis during any of my bike rides into work. Steep, long (about half a mile or more) and at the end of my route (where I'd already burned off most of my energy), it's a stretch I dread from the moment I leave my driveway. But, today, I finally surmounted it, without leaving the bike. Granted, I probably should not have done it. You see, by the time I got to the hill, I was feeling pretty good about myself. The ride up until then had gone really well and I'd noticed a significant increase in my endurance level since I first took the route. So, as I completely ran out of steam 3/4 of the way up the hill, I summoned all the determination and strength within myself and kept going. By the time I reached the top, it was obvious I'd pushed myself too far. Though my legs were strong and ready to go, my heart and lungs, which had been taking the brunt of the last 1/4 of the hill, were about to give out. Through I'd tried to keep my breathing timed and rhythmic on the way up, by the time I finished, it felt like my lungs wanted to expel themselves from my body.

But, I did it.